On Fire

There is this song by Switchfoot that has really been speaking to me. I kind of feel like it is telling my story. Here it goes:

They tell you where you need to go
They tell you when you need to leave
They tell you what you need to know
They tell you who you need to be.

But everything inside you
Knows there's more than what you heard
There's so much more than empty conversations
filled with empty words

And you're on fire
When he's near you
You're on fire when he speaks
You're on fire burning at these mysteries

Give me one more time around
give me one more chance to see,
Give me everything you are
Give me one more chance to be near you.

When everything inside me
Looks like everything I hate
You are the hope I have for change
You are the only chance I'll take

And I'm on fire when you're near me
I'm on fire when you speak
I'm on fire burning at these mysteries

I'm standing on the edge of me,
I'm standing on the edge of everything I've ever been
And I've been standing at the edge of me, standing at the edge.


This song really speaks to me because without God I am tossed back and forth, controlled by others and their view of me, and full of everything I hate. But with Him, all of that is burned away and there is beauty, life, and freedom. I can breathe. I need His presence so much. I need to believe that He is near and real and bigger than me and my inconsistencies and my sin. And, He is. It is what makes Him Savior. I cannot save myself. But, I'm on fire when He's near me.